Short Lived...

Sarah and I were recently given some pretty exciting news. She hadn't been feeling "right" and thought that perhaps she was pregnant. She went and got her blood drawn the a week before Father's Day and while we were on the road driving to a wedding in North Platte, NE we received a phone call from the Midwife confirming that Sarah was indeed pregnant. So, she told her parents who were at the wedding and I told mine that following weekend of Father's Day. Shortly after coming back to Topeka after the weekend in Sioux City Sarah said she felt like something was wrong. We had some blood work done and nothing had really changed; she was still pregnant. By Thursday night she came to me and said to me that she didn't feel pregnant anymore. We cuddled, snuggled, and cried. Friday she went in to draw some more blood work, which confirmed that the pregnancy was being lost... I still feel like a kid at the age of 23, but when I realized that I was going to be a daddy and I was beyond excited. This was the same for Sarah in being a mother. We're still both young, and just reached beyond the one year mark in mid-June and it's not like we aren't going to try again to have a child. I am saddened and Sarah is still emotionally recovering from this experience. I've tried to of been as supportive as I can be, but watching her makes it seem like I should be feeling more... Perhaps that is how we are built differently (male/female, husband/wife). We cope differently to different situations. I guess that if we were both emotional balls of goo (and Sarah isn't quite one) then who would be able to lift up and support the other through such a crisis. Kind of like the loss of my Grandfather. Sarah didn't feel the same emotions that I was feeling, but she was there with me through till the his death. She was the one who kept me in at least a couple pieces and built them back together quickly, never letting them shatter on me. Life is fragile, it's great to have an awesome support team for the times when it hurts... I just hope that I've been doing a good enough job for Sarah.